what does one do when all the choices made have left you in a position where everything you do is the wrong thing. and there seems to be no way out? how do you recconcile an error made when you know what happened but not when or why.
here's a sort of simplified analogy of how i feel at the moment. i feel like the titanic under an inept captain. i don't know what hit me or where the breach in the hull is. all i know is i'm taking on water and sinking.
i know what the problem is, i don't know how to solve it. i feel different, half broken.
"mirror mirror on the wall
who's the most broken of them all?
i wish you'd show me something to see
something not bearing the likeness of me"(-excerpt from my poem a mirror and a looking glass)
i guess this is what happens when you try to do too much purely for yourself. i think i'll take this as a lesson to be more mindful of my motives behind my actions. i guess we'll see if i can repair the damage that's been done. i hope so.
i guess for now, i'll just have to see what happens. and try to do the best i can and hope for some degree of forgiveness
-Bo
(dai stiho)
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